An honest question about originality....

Since having my 3rd beautiful baby, I have gone back and forth about my desire to continue scheduling sessions.  With exhaustion comes lack of creativity, as well as dread for everything scheduled.  However, over the past month Maddox has consistently slept 12 hours at night, bringing me to a more "normal" place physically and emotionally.  I find myself getting excited at the thought of learning more, coming up with new ideas, and bringing something very special into a family's living room.... not just walls of pictures,  but walls of art.
BUT.....
I think the thing that holds me back is frustration for a lack of originality.  It feels like with the internet (so awesome and so bad at the same time), so many of us are becoming so dependent on the ideas of everyone else, and not just photographers, but women in general.  I waste so much time looking at everyone else's blog to get photography ideas, parenting ideas, party ideas, cooking ideas, etc....  that if I would just spend half that time being a little more hands on, using my own brain and common sense, I could achieve so much more, and could learn so much more at the same time.  I let the comments and likes or dislikes of others sway me one direction or the other, instead of just doing what feels right to me and owning it.
Not to mention the fact that I don't feel like at this point I am all that different than all the other part time photographers all over the country (and there are lots!).  I know that I am good; I know I offer outstanding service to my clients;  I know I deserve what I charge.  But I don't want to be "good".  I want to be the best.  I want to bring something fabulous to the table that can't be found from anyone else.  I don't want someone to see my website and feel that there is any way they could call another photographer.
So....
I have decided to start scheduling some mini-sessions through August 1, 2011:  half price, half the typical session time, and half the # of images.  I am going to use these sessions as an opportunity to connect with my new clientele, get more familiar with the Fort Worth area, get my "creative juices flowing", and really focus on quality over quantity.  Simultaneously I am going to complete a new lighting workshop so that I can begin bringing even more to the table.  I hope that I can work on my "internet addiction" and can begin participating in my own life just a little more, instead of reading about everyone else's!